Thursday, March 13, 2008

Gaining some perspective...

So, I just felt like sharing some thoughts today. I try not to delve into a lot of personal "real" life on my blog - keep it light and positive, that's what works for me. But today I am in a rambling about real life mood, so bear with me! Life has been truly challenging lately, and we are above average stressed. Mostly our challenge at this time is financial - we are blessed to live in California, which we love, but as I am sure you know, the housing market and economy are "pooh-pooh" of late. Since we refinanced when the market was high, and because my husband had been working as a home inspector and in school to be certified as a building inspector, this has hit us VERY hard, and it has left a lot of things up in the air and frankly scary. So this is life, and I know that I am by no means the only one experiencing it, but it is hard. I have tried so hard to stay positive, to keep my mind on the fun things, and I have been blessed with many happy distractions, but I do find myself taking far too much time in self pity and "poor me" moments.

HOWEVER, over the last few days, I have been really forced to gain perspective on what "real" problems are like. Yes, this sucks - but it is only money, only material possessions, and a house is only a house. period.
I spend a lot of my free time sharing with a large scrapbooking community, caring about others on message boards, blogs and the like, and my "cyber friends" keep me entertained, informed, and all around blessed. It is crazy, but these strangers are such an important part of my life, and they add so much to it! AND over the last few days, they have brought me to tears and called me to prayer more often than I would like to count. I have learned of deaths of children, read about children that have cancer, husbands with rare illnesses, parents in tragic is overwhelming and heartbreaking, and real actual painful problems that make mine seem so small and insignificant.
I have spent today really counting (physically counting) my blessings. And through my tears and prayers for others, I have found so much to be thankful for. I am blessed. I am so sad and heartbroken for these women, and I want to be certain every day that while I am here, and while we are healthy, I don't waste time that will later be missed and regretted. So this is my "note to self" if you will.
I have beautiful, healthy, amazing children. I have a hard working husband that is here every day and takes care of us. I get to talk to or see my wonderful mother every day. I have a job that makes me happy. I have friends that support me, and that I completely adore. I am blessed.

I truly hope that this finds you healthy and happy, and counting blessings of your own.


Nicole said...

I totally know what you mean! HUGS!!

Annette said...

Your layouts are just beautiful. I recently fell & shattered my wrist. I now have a plate & screws & little mobility. I'm hoping it will improve with more therapy. We'll see. But I still feel blessed. Thanks for reminding us. Come visit me at

Anonymous said...

Hi :) I've been following your blog for just a couple weeks now because I love all of your creative ideas :) However, this entry hit home with me... because lately I've been going through many of the same thoughts you have! I have a 7 month old baby, and he (and, thus, my husband and I, too!!!) has been sick for 2 months with the respiratory junk that's been going around... not to mention a few stomach bugs here and there, also! I was feeling particularly bad for our little family a few days ago, especially when my son's coughing fits were preventing him from getting any sleep and so none of us had slept more than a few hours in 3 days!!! But I started to remember a book I had just read, My Sister's Keeper, about a little girl with Leukemia... and it was like all of a sudden, things were put into perspective for me! Yes, this stuff we're going through is a royal pain in the neck, but really, we have it so good in the grand scheme of things! Then, coincidentally (or due to fate??) I read your blog today about how you've been feeling the same way. Thanks for sharing because once again, you helped me put things into perspective! I truly hope things get better for you and your family, but I am also incredibly inspired by your words and appreciate that you also recognize how great you really have it. Thank you :)